How Do I Explain....

The feelings in my heart for a baby girl I have yet to meet? The contentment in knowing that eventually she will be in my arms even though I have no idea when? The way my ears perk up when I hear anything mentioned about China? The way my heart races when I see a family that reminds me what my family will eventually look like? How I LOVE my family exactly the way it is now but KNOW that my daughter is waiting for me half way around the world? That this journey is taking longer than I thought it would and for the most part I am fine with that? The yearning in my heart to get to China to soak up the culture but also to bring her to the United States to be with her family? So many questions but the biggest bestest answer is LOVE!

I LOVE Diana already although I have no idea about who she is....if she is born, if she has been conceived, if she is in an orphanage, if she is in foster care, if she is happy, if she is hungry, if she KNOWS in her heart that there are so many people who truly love her already.

Patiently(most of the time) I wait for the answers about Diana but in my heart the most important question has been answered. She IS my daughter and nothing could make me happier!

How Does She Know???

I have joined in on the secert pal fun of my CCAI Oct LID group. I have gotten several e-cards and e-mails of encouragement from my pal so far. About 2 weeks ago I was having a really bad day and my secret pal sent me an e-card that totally brightened my day. Today was a doozy at work. I got yelled at by 3 patients and then actually fell on a toy (at work). I went into the waiting room to ask a patient some more info and when I got up to go back to the reception area I stepped on a toy (a wagon at that) and me and it went into motion and then I fell. I had a bruise on the side of my leg almost instantly. I am still sore after advil and it being a few hours ago.

Anyway, I get home today and there on my kitchen table is a cute box with my name on it. I open it up to find the softest, warmest blanket for Diana. Also there were warm socks for Diana and even a pair for me! I really appriciate the thoughtfulness of my secret pal and also her ability to know exactly when I need a pick me up (literally)! I will cherish the blanket and the socks forever. When I cuddle up with Diana with this blanket I will think of my secret pal and smile!

Go Chicago Bears!!!!

Go BEARS Go!!
Bears are number 1!!!!
Bears Rule!!!

Wow what an exciting game today! Our Bears are going to the Super Bowl! I can't believe that its been 21 years since they played their last Super Bowl game. When the announcers mentioned that it was 21 years ago I almost had a heart attack. I remember the Super Bowl Shuffle like it was just a year ago and also remember watching the game. Look out Colts the Bears will eat you alive!!

The day was not just about the Bears though. The boys had their second swimming lesson and are progressing wonderfully. Their instructor this week was great! The boys really liked her and were very comfortable with her. Can you believe they actually touched the bottom of the pool? Amazing huh? Hopefully by this summer they will be extremely comfortable in the pool. Who knows I may actually get a pool pass if they do well......

In celebration of the Bears winning the division championship we had make your own pizza night. Bailey had pepperoni, a few mushrooms and cheese on his. Matthew had pepperoni, mushrooms, black olives and cheese. Dave was boring and had just cheese. I had mushrooms, black olives, and hot giardiniera....YUMMMMMMM (oh yeah and of course cheese). My mom was here and had the same as me except she had pepperoni as well.

The Super Bowl party this year should be Awesome!! Go BEARS go!!

Happy 3 Month Lidaversary!

My friend Janet always calls the anniversary of her LID her Lidaversary....I told her a long time ago that I was going to have to borrow it...Finally on the third month I am doing what I said!

Today actually was a very laid back day in our world. The kids had school, I ran errands and Dave worked. I did volunteer in Bailey's class today. I have no idea why they think its a good science project to give kindergarteners real hammers and nails to see what happens.....HELLO these are 5 and 6 year olds!!!!! The horror story of it all is that I did the same project yesterday in Matthew's class. Usually their teachers look at one another's volunteer schedule and have me come in different weeks. I give one Tuesday a month to Matthew's class and one Wednesday a month in Bailey's. Of course the week there are hammers involved I get both classes in the same week. Thanks....I will send the bill for the hearing aid to their teachers...lol. I enjoy getting to spend time in their classes and they love to show their mommy off so its a win-win situation.....

Back to the day... I was actually home tonight for the first night in three. Monday night one of my adoption groups had a book club so I went there after dinner. Yesterday my home study agency had a waiting moms meeting. I love these things because all of the people in the room know exactly how I am feeling it and why! Tonight though I made a huge pot of soup and we actually had dinner as a family. I then got to watch American Idol as I cut my fabric for the quilt swap I am participating in from my agency dtc/lid group. Now I just have to get the wishes done. I am TRYING to be better about posting my wishes on my other blog but have been really bad about it lately. Hopefully this weekend I will get it up to date.

As you can see our lidaversary was nothing special. Although it does mean that we are three months closer to bringing her home.....I just wish I could count down how many more I have to go. Oh well! Meanwhile we continue to think about Diana and pray that she is safe and warm until we can get there.....

Making wishes on the stars

Well the stars were really out tonight. Dave went to take care of garbage detail and told me there were a ton of stars out tonight. I went out with the camera but I just couldn't get a good picture. They were beautiful and I just stood there in the cold for a few minutes gazing at them.

The little girl in me couldn't resist the urge to make a wish. Actually I made a few:

1. I wished that my boys would continue to be healthy and the loves of my life.
2. I wished that Diana was safe no matter where she is either in utereo or being left somewhere for someone to find her or in an orphanage/foster care.
3. I wished that she could feel my love and know in her heart how many people already love and care about her.
4. I wished China would speed up their referrals so we could go get Diana.

These are all the same things that I pray for before I go to sleep every night. It just seemed right to wish for them under that big bright sky full stars tonight. I just hope all of my wishes come true.......