My Heart Is Smiling....

Yesterday I was I in a major funk. I was depressed about the wait. I was depressed that the boys were growing up before my eyes. I was depressed just because I was. We had curriculum night at school and it just got to me that my boys are in 1st grade and who knows when their baby sister will be here....Before going to bed I actually "composed" a blog entry that I was sure to post tonight. I just KNEW that this one coworker was going to innocently going to ask me about Diana and I was going to complain about how she will never GET this process (like I do?).

This morning I still thought I was going to do that post and I was STILL in a horrible mood. I yelled at both the boys this morning and got to work and had a hissy fit because the new phone system stinks and since the computers crashed yesterday I had to enter all of yesterday's visits and on and on it went.

Until a patient came in with her one month old baby and had to go back out to her car to get her check book for her copay. For those of you who don't know I work as a receptionist in a pediatricians office. I love my job most of the time and I get my baby fix, my little girl fix, my toddler boy fix all in one place and sometimes even all in the same day. Today was one of those days

...back to the mom who had to get her checkbook. We see her getting ready to lug her baby (car seat and all) back out the door. We offer to bring the baby back by the reception desk so Mommy doesn't have to take her back out. Mommy agrees. As many of my coworkers will attest the reception area is TINY but there we were... me, my fellow receptionist, our CNA and our nurse all ogling the baby. (My heart smiles.) She had the cutest pink blanket with a crown and her name done up in crystals. The coworker that I KNEW was going to make me mad by asking about when will we hear about Diana says "Lisa you have to get one of those for Diana." My heart smiles again. Throughout the day at work I get all my "fixes", my baby in general fix, my little girl fix , my toddler boy fix....my heart is really smiling.

After dinner tonight Dave asks the boys who forgot to put their bowl in the sink...the boys argue back and forth as to who's bowl is missing. They bring the bowl to the sink and Dave asks "Who's bowl is that?" "Matthew's" says Bailey. "Bailey's" says Matthew. Dave is shaking his head and I am on the floor laughing hysterically.

About 10 minutes later Matthew comes upstairs and announces he is done with his milk so now he wants dessert. He says "Mommy remember the other day you said you were going to make us those smoothies?' I say yes KNOWING he is going to ask me to make him one for dessert. Well instead he says...."Well you know, you never did...." and goes on to ask if he can have an ice cream cone. I am again on the floor laughing. I of course tell him yes and also say "Matthew, you make my heart smile!" I then proceed to kiss him. I am so happy tonight as I type this entry....my heart is truly smiling and all is right in my little corner of the world with my little boys who are growing up too quickly for me to believe and have reminded me yet again what a lucky person I really am!